Trying Tuesday

4:30 – 7:00 wake
7:30 turkey sausage casserole
10:00 strawberry metabolic drive (forgot to eat my fruit)
12:00 kung pao chicken, cauliflower, satsuma
1:30 the rest of lunch
3:00 raw cashew, cacao, MD smoothie
5:30 salmon w/ miso glaze
6:30 TKD 1h

I think maybe the lack of daylight is starting to get to me and I should make more of an effort to get outside during lunch. I was really soundly asleep when the alarm went off and then I felt awful when I tried to get up so I decided I would sleep a little more and then work out at home… Ha! Never bargain with yourself when you’re tired because you’re always lying. I will go to TKD tonight and now I’m feeling guilty so there’s no way I’ll skip cardio tomorrow, right? Right?
Was a bit discouraged this morning and feeling like a puffy, weary, frustrated and unmotivated pig. It’s the end of the semester, it’s the end of the year, it’s the home stretch of my 20 week body-improvement project and I’m just tired. But, y’know, even if I “quit” I’d still eat the same way and keep going to the gym. I think the only difference would be that I wouldn’t get down on myself for missing workouts.

I’ve come a long way since last December. I bought a bikini with boy-shorts bottoms two summers ago as incentive to regain my health and the first time I took a picture with them I had to jump to get them up and I wasn’t sure I’d be able to get them off. Now I can just slip them on and lace them up with extra room in the waist. I know it took me 12 months to do what normal people could do in 3 months, but time passes and progress is progress. I probably won’t be where I want to be until this summer, but I’ll get there eventually.